[::..Everything And Nothing..::]
Well I realized that I haven't updated this in a while and I thought I'd update not just on the MD topic, but on all topics touched on in this Blog. *stretches* This could take a while.
Disclaimer: Due to my sarcastic and rude nature I'll probably take some cheap shots in this. But please don’t take offense to them. The fact that I'm joking about them means that I've put it behind me and all's forgiven if not forgotten.
1. Not so depressed. I suppose you could say I "have my moments" but I'm certainly not as miserable as I was at the start of this Blog. I'm actually happy to be alive now and I dont sit around wishing for death or thinking about running away. Its great to be able to enjoy life again. I mean, things aren't perfect, but they are a shit load better and much more managable.
2. Matt. It's funny almost. I started this thing hopelessly in love and thinking that I'd loose him as a friend forever because of it. Now I'm over him once and for all! And though we may not be as good of friends as we used to be, we're getting along great. I see him a lot more now (not saying much seeing as how before I never saw him. Sorry cheap shot!) And we talk pretty well now. I think that we have a chance of becoming good friends again.
3. My family is fine. The Nazi is still just that, a Nazi but oh well. That’s not bothering me as much anymore. Troy is great! Hess in Cali for a while for work, but he'll be back for a few days either this weekend of the next. Troy helped me move on from Matt and has so much more likeable then the Nazi. My mom still gets on my nerves from time to time, but she hasn’t been as bad lately. Or maybe I'm less emo and I don’t take what she says as badly. Whatever. My bro and sis are fine. I don’t see them much which is fine because it allows less chance for them to piss me off and thus have us fight. As for more extended family the only thing of note is my grandfather. Hess doing ok and so far his doctors say that he should be receptive to surgery. Now to convince him to actually have the surgery. *shakes head* He’s a stubborn person; I think it runs in our family.
4. Friends wise things are better. I'm on good terms with everyone. Tracy is still estranged from the group. I won’t lie and say things are better, but they aren't as bad as they could be. Yes, that’s a good way to put it. Everyone is facing the problem and trying to figure out what they think about the subject. That's defiantly a step in the right direction. As for my "between best friends" thing. I'd have to say that’s still true. But it's not as bad or lonely as before. I guess I’ve come to terms with that. I've come accept that I'm not particularly close to one person, but I do have more then one person I can lean on. Its better then nothing.
5. As for work, well thats going better. With so many people working night shift now (thanks to Tom switching from days to nights) I dont have as much pressure to work that many hours. Plus I make more money now so I dont notice the change in hours very much. Everyone at work is cool, at both stores actually. MJ is still annoying and Fatass still frieghtens me, but I'll live.
6. I've been getting more sleep lately and just generally taking better care of myself. I'm taking more time to rest and not get as stressed out. I have way less black outs and I just generally feel a whole lot better physicaly.
7. School is ok. My grades are good so far this semester and with no more Nazi speak and a new Study Hall I have a lot more time to do homework. My teachers are cool this semester (for the most part) and none of them give me too hard a time. APUSH is less stressful and I'm enjoying the class as always. I'm rocking our tests so far and my essays have improved a lot.
8. Love life. Well its back. And this time instead of just horrible unrequited love, its the posibility of a new relationship. After I talk to Indre I'll decide 100% whether or not I ask Matt to Spring. So unless Indre says that MD is no longer interested or something, I'll ask him on Sunday. Wish me luck! Its so great to have a crush on someone and not have the feeling of being heartbroken. Its truly uplifting. Though I do want things to work out between MD and I.
I think thats all. Its not nearly as long as I thought it would be. But I felt that many issues were opened up in this Blog but never resolved. And I felt I needed to bring some closure to those issues.
ttyl and kinky sex dreams for all,
---Rhodes
The Heart May Freeze
Or It Can Burn
The Pain Will Ease
---Mimi, Another Day, Rent
Disclaimer: Due to my sarcastic and rude nature I'll probably take some cheap shots in this. But please don’t take offense to them. The fact that I'm joking about them means that I've put it behind me and all's forgiven if not forgotten.
1. Not so depressed. I suppose you could say I "have my moments" but I'm certainly not as miserable as I was at the start of this Blog. I'm actually happy to be alive now and I dont sit around wishing for death or thinking about running away. Its great to be able to enjoy life again. I mean, things aren't perfect, but they are a shit load better and much more managable.
2. Matt. It's funny almost. I started this thing hopelessly in love and thinking that I'd loose him as a friend forever because of it. Now I'm over him once and for all! And though we may not be as good of friends as we used to be, we're getting along great. I see him a lot more now (not saying much seeing as how before I never saw him. Sorry cheap shot!) And we talk pretty well now. I think that we have a chance of becoming good friends again.
3. My family is fine. The Nazi is still just that, a Nazi but oh well. That’s not bothering me as much anymore. Troy is great! Hess in Cali for a while for work, but he'll be back for a few days either this weekend of the next. Troy helped me move on from Matt and has so much more likeable then the Nazi. My mom still gets on my nerves from time to time, but she hasn’t been as bad lately. Or maybe I'm less emo and I don’t take what she says as badly. Whatever. My bro and sis are fine. I don’t see them much which is fine because it allows less chance for them to piss me off and thus have us fight. As for more extended family the only thing of note is my grandfather. Hess doing ok and so far his doctors say that he should be receptive to surgery. Now to convince him to actually have the surgery. *shakes head* He’s a stubborn person; I think it runs in our family.
4. Friends wise things are better. I'm on good terms with everyone. Tracy is still estranged from the group. I won’t lie and say things are better, but they aren't as bad as they could be. Yes, that’s a good way to put it. Everyone is facing the problem and trying to figure out what they think about the subject. That's defiantly a step in the right direction. As for my "between best friends" thing. I'd have to say that’s still true. But it's not as bad or lonely as before. I guess I’ve come to terms with that. I've come accept that I'm not particularly close to one person, but I do have more then one person I can lean on. Its better then nothing.
5. As for work, well thats going better. With so many people working night shift now (thanks to Tom switching from days to nights) I dont have as much pressure to work that many hours. Plus I make more money now so I dont notice the change in hours very much. Everyone at work is cool, at both stores actually. MJ is still annoying and Fatass still frieghtens me, but I'll live.
6. I've been getting more sleep lately and just generally taking better care of myself. I'm taking more time to rest and not get as stressed out. I have way less black outs and I just generally feel a whole lot better physicaly.
7. School is ok. My grades are good so far this semester and with no more Nazi speak and a new Study Hall I have a lot more time to do homework. My teachers are cool this semester (for the most part) and none of them give me too hard a time. APUSH is less stressful and I'm enjoying the class as always. I'm rocking our tests so far and my essays have improved a lot.
8. Love life. Well its back. And this time instead of just horrible unrequited love, its the posibility of a new relationship. After I talk to Indre I'll decide 100% whether or not I ask Matt to Spring. So unless Indre says that MD is no longer interested or something, I'll ask him on Sunday. Wish me luck! Its so great to have a crush on someone and not have the feeling of being heartbroken. Its truly uplifting. Though I do want things to work out between MD and I.
I think thats all. Its not nearly as long as I thought it would be. But I felt that many issues were opened up in this Blog but never resolved. And I felt I needed to bring some closure to those issues.
ttyl and kinky sex dreams for all,
---Rhodes
The Heart May Freeze
Or It Can Burn
The Pain Will Ease
---Mimi, Another Day, Rent
Alura - 3:21 PM