[::..To Going Against The Grain..::]
I'm going insane. No question. No doubt. I'm loosing what little of my mind I had left. Yay for insanity.
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become
---Evanecsence, Away From Me, Origin
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become
---Evanecsence, Away From Me, Origin
Alura - 11:20 AM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
[::..My Measurement..::]
Five years of friendship, one month of dating, two years of heart ache and trying. The first day's a nod, the second is pure silence. Instead of cups of coffee, or inches, or laughter, my five years amount to silence. Glad to know I spent my time wisely.
Alura - 12:58 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
[::..Why Do I Try?..::]
Alright, so Matt calls me and I'm trying to talk to him. Trying to be a freind to him, tell him whats happening in my life and.... it was useless. Most of the time I felt like he either didnt give a crap or wasnt listening. I mean I try to tell him about the essay I'm writing based off the book Half and Half that I read. He pretty much didn't care. After that I pretty much closed up and therewas basicly just awkward silence punctured by occasional comments. I mean, I'm trying. Really I am. But ugh. I just doesn't feel like he's open to anything I say. Maybe I'm being emo, maybe I'm over reacting. But really, could he at least act like he cared about what I said? That'd be nice. In my opinion either start acting like you care, or just give up. It seems like everytime I try to bridge the gap, it gets larger. And while I'm a very loud person, I'm getting tired of yelling across the canyon.
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
You never saw how much the crack had opened.
You never knew I had run out of rope.
---Jamie, Goodbye Until Tomorrow/I Could Never Rescue You, The Last Five Years
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
You never saw how much the crack had opened.
You never knew I had run out of rope.
---Jamie, Goodbye Until Tomorrow/I Could Never Rescue You, The Last Five Years
Alura - 6:24 AM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
[::..Some Things Will Always Be The Same..::]
Well its a comfort to know that one thing in my life will always be the same.
No matter whats happening in my life, how hard I'm trying, or how much I dont want to, I always end up sitting on the floor of my room, curled up in a ball, crying my eyes out. Alone.
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
---Evanescence, Tourniquet, Fallen
No matter whats happening in my life, how hard I'm trying, or how much I dont want to, I always end up sitting on the floor of my room, curled up in a ball, crying my eyes out. Alone.
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
---Evanescence, Tourniquet, Fallen
Alura - 1:49 AM