[::..That's Nice.....::]
I had a bit of a breakdown again today. Nothing new. Just the usual crying alone is my room thing. And while I was doing that I realized something. I've managed to perfectly fuck myself over for life. Yup! ^_^ I've made it so I'm incapable of truely getting close to anyone and getting and real help. Which means that one day I'll just snap and do something drastic because of all the pressure I put on myself. I mean, its a lot to handle, my fucked up mental state is. I think that longest I'll last is mid-twenties. About 25 or 26. 30 with divine intervention. Past 30 would be demonic intervention cause teh devil wants to see me suffer. I think the earliest I'd off myself (nice way of putting it right?) is college. Like my junior or senior year. So I say that between the ages of 20-26 I'll commit suicide. Nice thought right? And now your left to wonder just how serious I am.
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
---Evanescence, Understanding, Origin
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
---Evanescence, Understanding, Origin
Alura - 4:18 AM