[::..R-E-S-P-E-C-T..::]
So today was a half day. I was invited to Jins but didnt really wanna go. So I was just gonna hang out with Jeremy. Then he pressures me into going to Jin's. That went surprisingly well. So well infact, that I decide to ask Emily and Brittany to go to the mall with me. We get there and all seems well, I'm a bit weary of spending time with either of them outside of the group setting for more then just 10 minutes but I was willing to give it a try. MISTAKE! We happen to walk by Too Cool and I said I didnt wanna go by. Emily then proceeds to drag Brit in there. I simply walked away. I wasnt pissed more disappointed that they couldnt even have gone 20 mins without annoying me. They completely disregarded what I said. I walked around the mall by myself. Taking a lot of looping routes up stairs and down stairs to make sure I lost them. Ugh! They found me. So I end up spending more time with them. Except now I have to desire to be there and I'm pissed. The more I think about it, the angrier I get. How dare they disregard what I say? Thats bull shit! It was like a cherry on top of a shit cake of crap I dont like dealing with. So I end up leaving them. Telling them I wanna leave.
Now for the next bit you need some background info. I have made public annoucements to the Techies at least twice before not to visit me at subway.
So at work I get there and I'm still a little pissed and emo but its not too bad. I ask Sam if I could go get my DVD player and Ev CD because I knew that would make me feel a bit better. As I'm walking out, Dustin and Jeremy are pulling up. When I get back, Marina is there. Five minutes later, Brittany shows up. My only response to that was walking outside to the back of the store, then to the side of the dumpster and screaming. Not that that helped much. I was still pissed. I mean, how dear they completely ignore what I said? I told them not to, and they come by anyway. Is it simply not important what I say? Do they have no respect for me? Do they think I'm just one big joke? Cause really, if I hadnt gone outside to scream and then listened to Ev, I would have punched a hole in the sneeze guard. And I'm not joking.
And to top it all off, Brittany asked me if I was ok. ASKED IF I WAS OK!!!!!!!!!! We all know I hate that. I have never and probably will never answer that question correctly. Its so impersonal. If you really wanna know how I am, you'll ask a better question then that. You'll say "Is [fill in the blank] bothering you?" Then I'll answer yes or no. Simply as that. "Are you ok." Is just so generic and impersonal. Its bull shit. I hate it. If you knew me, you wouldnt ask that. In fact, if you knew me, youd know to leave me the fuck alone when I'm pissed and to not talk about it. Of course, Jeremy and Marina ask about it. *shakes head*
So I think I'm officially not good friends with any of them. That was just so wrong. I felt so disrespected. Like I had been slapped in the face, told that I and what I said didnt matter.
Thats really sad. I thought at least I had Jeremy and Marina left. *sigh*
ttyl and kinky sex dreams for all,
---Rhodes
Should it hurt to love you
Should I feel like I do
Should I lock the last open door
My ghosts are gaining on me
---Evanescence, All That I'm Living For, The Open Door
Now for the next bit you need some background info. I have made public annoucements to the Techies at least twice before not to visit me at subway.
So at work I get there and I'm still a little pissed and emo but its not too bad. I ask Sam if I could go get my DVD player and Ev CD because I knew that would make me feel a bit better. As I'm walking out, Dustin and Jeremy are pulling up. When I get back, Marina is there. Five minutes later, Brittany shows up. My only response to that was walking outside to the back of the store, then to the side of the dumpster and screaming. Not that that helped much. I was still pissed. I mean, how dear they completely ignore what I said? I told them not to, and they come by anyway. Is it simply not important what I say? Do they have no respect for me? Do they think I'm just one big joke? Cause really, if I hadnt gone outside to scream and then listened to Ev, I would have punched a hole in the sneeze guard. And I'm not joking.
And to top it all off, Brittany asked me if I was ok. ASKED IF I WAS OK!!!!!!!!!! We all know I hate that. I have never and probably will never answer that question correctly. Its so impersonal. If you really wanna know how I am, you'll ask a better question then that. You'll say "Is [fill in the blank] bothering you?" Then I'll answer yes or no. Simply as that. "Are you ok." Is just so generic and impersonal. Its bull shit. I hate it. If you knew me, you wouldnt ask that. In fact, if you knew me, youd know to leave me the fuck alone when I'm pissed and to not talk about it. Of course, Jeremy and Marina ask about it. *shakes head*
So I think I'm officially not good friends with any of them. That was just so wrong. I felt so disrespected. Like I had been slapped in the face, told that I and what I said didnt matter.
Thats really sad. I thought at least I had Jeremy and Marina left. *sigh*
ttyl and kinky sex dreams for all,
---Rhodes
Should it hurt to love you
Should I feel like I do
Should I lock the last open door
My ghosts are gaining on me
---Evanescence, All That I'm Living For, The Open Door
Alura - 10:54 PM