[::..Do You Ever Think Of Me?..::]
Last night, I got annoyed with Matt cause he was on and off his phone last night. And I know it sounds stupid, selfish and irrational but I view the time I get to work with Matt as my time. Its the only time I get to see him and as bad as it sounds, I want him to focus on me. *sigh* Stupid, irrational, selfish and stalkerish, I know.
I just care about him so much that I cant help but want to spend as much time with him as possible. I really need to just get over him. Its not like somethings gonna happen and this feeling of hallow exhaustion after seeing him can get annoying. I mean most of the time I see him and I'm all giddy and happy and I feel like I'm on that high for a while. But then sometimes after I see him I feel empty and almost used. Like he knows the effect he has on me and just likes getting a reaction out of me. *sigh*
Really folks, I need to move on. But how do I? I mean I care for him so much and I know him pretty well. And hes one of only a few people that I am comfortable with even in awkward situations and I can talk to him so easily that its scary. My heart screams affection. What does his say?
Tell me what to do folks. I really want to just talk to him but I dont know how and honest to God I tend to forget. I'm usually just so happy to see him or talk to him that I forget to even bring it up. Plus, how do I bring it up? I wish I knew.
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder If you ever think of me
---Vanessa Carlton, A Thousand Miles, Be Not Nobody
I just care about him so much that I cant help but want to spend as much time with him as possible. I really need to just get over him. Its not like somethings gonna happen and this feeling of hallow exhaustion after seeing him can get annoying. I mean most of the time I see him and I'm all giddy and happy and I feel like I'm on that high for a while. But then sometimes after I see him I feel empty and almost used. Like he knows the effect he has on me and just likes getting a reaction out of me. *sigh*
Really folks, I need to move on. But how do I? I mean I care for him so much and I know him pretty well. And hes one of only a few people that I am comfortable with even in awkward situations and I can talk to him so easily that its scary. My heart screams affection. What does his say?
Tell me what to do folks. I really want to just talk to him but I dont know how and honest to God I tend to forget. I'm usually just so happy to see him or talk to him that I forget to even bring it up. Plus, how do I bring it up? I wish I knew.
ttyl and better days,
---Rhodes
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder If you ever think of me
---Vanessa Carlton, A Thousand Miles, Be Not Nobody
Alura - 1:46 PM