[::..Conformation and Loving Life..::]
Ok, so heres the story:
I was at work today, and around noon I had to write the date on some prep that I was doing. I wrote the "5" and the "/" but I couldnt remember the date. So I look at the schedule to see the day and it says "20th." Here is when I pause, look up and begin to think.
I felt like I had missed something. Like something had gone past without my knowledge. And I stood there a second thinking, when suddenly my face broke out in a grin and my chibi danced around the store. The 18th. I had missed the 18th. It passed and I didnt even recognize it happening.
So why is that important? Well May 18, 2004, is the day that Neylon broke up with me. Last year on that day, I cried my eyes out. This year on the otherhand, I didnt even know that it was passing!!!! In other words, its final conformation that I've moved on and that Neylon is no longer a factor in my life, mind or heart. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
Also, besides one day (Wednesday) that started out horribly, but ended well, I've had nothing but good things happening in my life. Life is going my way for once! I'm actually, dare I say it, happy! I actually forgot what it was like to be able to wake up and not be thinking, "Oh God, not again." or "Oh no, whats gonna go wrong today." Its amazing really. How happy and carefree I can be when I'm not worried about everything falling apart. People have even commented on how at times, I'm just really happy, or hyper. I actually enjoy life right now. Its..... amazing.
On the Matt front, nothing is really happening. But I still enjoy working with him and talking to him. I think its more important that we remain friends. I mean, I'd like more, but I dont wanna push anything, and I'm satisfied with how things are. I have a ton of fun fake fighting with him and arguing ove petty things. Maybe in the future, I'll try for more, but for now, I'll sufice with the talks we have, and thoughts in my head.
ttyl and kinky sex dreams for all,
---Rhodes
At least out loud, I wont say I'm in .... Love.
---Meg, I Wont Say I'm In Love, Hercules Soundtrack
I was at work today, and around noon I had to write the date on some prep that I was doing. I wrote the "5" and the "/" but I couldnt remember the date. So I look at the schedule to see the day and it says "20th." Here is when I pause, look up and begin to think.
I felt like I had missed something. Like something had gone past without my knowledge. And I stood there a second thinking, when suddenly my face broke out in a grin and my chibi danced around the store. The 18th. I had missed the 18th. It passed and I didnt even recognize it happening.
So why is that important? Well May 18, 2004, is the day that Neylon broke up with me. Last year on that day, I cried my eyes out. This year on the otherhand, I didnt even know that it was passing!!!! In other words, its final conformation that I've moved on and that Neylon is no longer a factor in my life, mind or heart. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
Also, besides one day (Wednesday) that started out horribly, but ended well, I've had nothing but good things happening in my life. Life is going my way for once! I'm actually, dare I say it, happy! I actually forgot what it was like to be able to wake up and not be thinking, "Oh God, not again." or "Oh no, whats gonna go wrong today." Its amazing really. How happy and carefree I can be when I'm not worried about everything falling apart. People have even commented on how at times, I'm just really happy, or hyper. I actually enjoy life right now. Its..... amazing.
On the Matt front, nothing is really happening. But I still enjoy working with him and talking to him. I think its more important that we remain friends. I mean, I'd like more, but I dont wanna push anything, and I'm satisfied with how things are. I have a ton of fun fake fighting with him and arguing ove petty things. Maybe in the future, I'll try for more, but for now, I'll sufice with the talks we have, and thoughts in my head.
ttyl and kinky sex dreams for all,
---Rhodes
At least out loud, I wont say I'm in .... Love.
---Meg, I Wont Say I'm In Love, Hercules Soundtrack
Alura - 4:40 PM